A
lot has happened since my last post.
Through a lot of thought and prayer I have decided to return to the
states. This decision wasn't made lightly;
it’s something that I have struggled with for a little while now. For some time I have been feeling a sense of
restlessness in my spirit. At first I
thought it was homesickness, and then wondered if it was what I was or wasn't doing here. Once I started getting
heavily involved, the restlessness still remained. Going home was never an option for me at the
time. You see I saw that as failing,
quitting, or giving up. I was too afraid
of what people would think, if they would be mad, or disappointed. So I continued, hoping the restlessness would
fade. Unfortunately it didn't.
It
took a long conversation with someone, whose opinion means a lot, for me to
realize that when God sends you somewhere for a specific reason at a specific time,
His timing is not our timing. Sometimes
He might pull us out before we expect it.
They helped me see that it wouldn't be quitting, that I can be proud of
what I have done here, the time I have given.
Like
I said, this wasn't an easy decision, I had many sleepless nights but once the
decision was made I had an instant sense of peace. I feel good about my decision, but on the
flip side I have a heavy heart. I have
learned and grown so much over the past year and half. I have made friendships that I truly believe
will last a lifetime. Not to mention, I
love Croatia, I love Europe. I can say
with all my heart that God used my time in Croatia to continue to mold and shape
me into the woman of God He wants me to be.
I
believe in what is happening in Croatia.
God is working in ways that still blows my mind. It humbles me to think that He could use me to
further His kingdom here. I am so
excited to look at Croatia 10 years from now and see how it has grown.
I
don’t know what the future holds for me.
If I’m honest with you, I’m a little scared to be walking into the
unknown, but that’s the exciting part too right? I know God has big plans for me and I am so excited
to see what’s next.
I
can’t thank you enough for all your support, seriously.. THANK YOU
Until
the next chapter…
Steph
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